I hope I haven't let her down...

I hope some of her,

innocent, sweet, laughing, dancing, her,

is in me.

I hope I haven't crushed all her dreams or wishes.

I hope she would be proud of me.

I hope I can live up to her expectations.

I hope her confidence & security finds its way to me.

I hope her faith sustains me.

I hope to never forget her or where she came from.

I hope that the free, uninhibited spirit that powered her through every day will over take me.

I hope I haven't let her down.

Give Me Jesus

Give me Jesus.
Give me compassion & understanding.
Give me patience, grace, & love.
Give me peace.
Give me a soft heart & a helpful spirit.
Give me mercy.
Give me eyes that see brokenness.
Give me ears that hear cries for help.
Give me joy  & gladness.
Give me courage & strength.
Give me a boldness that empowers me.
Give me knowledge.
Give me words.
Give me the ability to be still & quiet.
Give me Jesus.

3/9/12

{Here Ends the Known}

Here ends the known.
Here ends the lies that have defined me for so long.
You bind me no more.
I will no longer believe things about myself that have been thrown at me by the deceiver.
I am worthy. I am good enough. I am loved.
Here ends the girl that believed otherwise.
Here ends the known.

Here ends the fear.
Enough of the crippling worry.
Enough of the pounding voices in my head that analyze, dissect, and over think things I don't actually control.
I am safe. I am cared for. I am protected.
Here ends my tight grasp on life.
Here ends the known.

Goodbye hate. Goodbye grudges.
Farewell to anxiety, pain, despair, depression, frustration, exasperation and jealousy.
I have known you for far too long.
Here ends the known.

Here begins the unknown...

2/19/2012